Married & All the Rest!

It took having a girl contact me through my blog to realize that I haven't wrote in forever. I've been meaning to, but we all know how that goes. Right now seems like the perfect timing though to start back up under the circumstances.

About a month ago, the boy and I got married! Everything went perfectly. I honestly could have not asked for anything more (well except for my brother to be there). It was a very short ceremony and then the reception was at my house. Only family was invited, but since my brother lives out of state and just got a new job, he wasn't able to fly back home in time. Good thing we're having a vow renewal next year that he can be at!

I did end up going to the Marine Corps Ball about a week before we were married. It was fun dressing up. I felt honored to be there meeting all of Misters higher-ups and getting to know some of the other Marine girls before all the guys would be deploying a few weeks later.

Those few weeks later have passed and yes my husband is currently deployed. It's our fourth deployment, but this one is definitely the longest and lack of communication has made it more difficult. Where he is at, there is no internet and mail comes about once a month. All we have are letters, which I find to be actually really amazing, because with letters, I think you can really grow close to someone and that's what we are planning with this deployment - to grow closer to each other and make something good out of it. I almost feel like I'm back in WW1 with the yellow bow tied around the tree in my front yard and writing love letters every day to him. My goal: give him the most mail out of anyone. I will succeed!

The Break Down.

Here I am sitting in front of my parent’s laptop about to have an emotional breakdown. The past six months have been a rollercoaster for my family and I. Six days after my birthday my grandpa passed away. He’s lived with emphysema for as long as I can remember due to a missing gene in his lungs. We were expecting him to pass, but I wasn’t able to be by his side because I simply could no longer watch him fight for each breath and listen as his lungs were literally mush. A couple days before he passed, I visited him for a couple hours and just bawled as I sat by his side. The whole time I felt anxious and literally wanted to breakdown. I had to leave. I didn’t want to remember him that way. I believe he understands though. I’m just thankful that the last words I muttered to him were, “I love you,” as I kissed him on his forehead and brushed his gray hair. I just really wish he was here…

I was more than blessed to have such a wonderful man in my life. I know he’s in Heaven now breathing in deep breaths and enjoying his time with his older brother and parents. I love and miss you so much grampy… I know that I will see you again. Watch over our family.

On top of my grandpas passing, I’ve been trying to emotionally prepare for my fiancé deploying, as well as us getting married in less than a month. I wish I could tell you what was going to happen on our wedding day, but I have no clue myself. Therefore: stressed. We’re either getting married at my church or a nearby park. We’re either inviting twenty-six people, twenty-four people, twenty-two people or making it strictly parents and us (therefore, eight people). We’re either skipping on a reception or going to a nearby restaurant and hopefully keeping the bill under $600. Basically we’re all either going to go bald from stressing so much or go bald from literally pulling out our own hair. No joke.

I can fully understand why people elope. I get it. I don’t think I could do it without my parents, but I understand why anyone would want to just go off, get married, and not worry what anyone else thinks or says. Weddings are so much stress although most of it I think we bring upon ourselves. At least, that’s what I’m starting to think. I’m beginning to not care what anyone else thinks. I just want to be married already…

& so the emotional breakdown continues.

The Ball

We're going! At first Mister told me we wouldn't be able to because tickets were no longer available. He told me he would make it up to me though. Well a little bit ago, he sent me a text telling me to get my dress ready. I was very confused at what he was talking about. Apparently, one of the guys s/o can't go, so he gave the ticket to Mister so I could come! Yay me!!

This will be my first (and last) ball so I really hope that everything goes perfectly!

Does anyone have any advice for me?

Found My Wedding Dress!

What a relief! There's only a little more than two months until we're married and I just now finally found my wedding dress. Boy has it made me that much more excited. It's really starting to sink in that I'M GETTING MARRIED! I can't wait to be his wife!

Wedding planning has been in full force lately. We started some DIY projects and cut others out. We wanted to make some cute lanterns for the tables, but they turned out to be extremely flimsy and quite ugly. Not exactly the look we're going for.

It's been hard planning though since Mister is currently away for training. We haven't spoken one another at all for the past couple days. As crazy as this might sound to a lot of you military significant others, it's actually the longest that we've gone without speaking. I'm doing fine. I find the hardest part about it is not being able to tell him about my day. I never realized how important that is to me.

It's crazy how little things can mean the world. I'm just blessed that we have been able to experience the things we have to get us to the point we are now. I honestly can say that things haven't been better. We're both just at a really great spot and have truly learned to communicate and appreciate one another. It's wonderful. Things are wonderful!

Pre-Deployment Pictures

I have been wanting to get pre-deployment pictures for a while now. Mister and I have the date where I'll be heading back to California for a visit, so I've been Googling away, trying to find a photographer. I'm desperate ladies, and I don't know why I haven't thought of posting this before. Does anyone know a photographer in the San Clemente/Oceanside area? If you do, comment me or send me a message via the contact link above!!